More Bub

I walk in to Bub’s room. The door is wide open and the air conditioner is on. She is upset because she says she couldn’t sleep last night because it was so hot. I take a closer look and see that the appliance is set to “fan” I tell her that she needs to keep her bedroom door closed and to have the thing set to “cool” In fact I can see where my mother has marked the positions on the dials so that my Grandmother, with her bad eyesight, can see how to set the machine. Obviously this has not had the desired effect. I leave for a few minutes. When I come back, the door is open and she has turned the termostat control down to its lowest (hotest) setting. What are you doing? I ask her. It is too loud she says. I already have too much in my head, this makes me nervose. I don’t need it cold. I thought you said you couldn’t sleep. I slept in the morning. I admonish her to the simple behaviors that will allow her to be semi-comfortable in the oppressive heat that will be coming in the summer months. She responds by telling me that I am just like my mother. She doesn’t like it too cold. She just wants it normal.

Shvouse you’re not allowed to eat meat. Just dairy. This is the month that we left Stasha. Fert is a horse. Took mine sister minah father. Let them all rest in piece already. We went our little city to the plane to go away. To America.

But you went to Cuba.

Yea.

I will never forget it. We used to live in one room. The toilet was on outside. A man would come along once a week to take out the dirt. When my little sister found out from where they make the bread she didn’t want any bread. From what you makin the bread. The flour they taken. Aw shit. That was why my sister didn’t want to eat the bread because she learned the flour was coming from the shit. She found out from where the seeds come from. These seeds they taken the shit from the toilet and from that it comes out the bread. Would you believe she never ate the bread again. I’ll never forget it. She was a girl. She told the doctor you going to hell because of you. He went to the store to get a drink heleft the helpers to do the appendicitis they cut the liver instead of the apendix. They cut the liver. If that was here in america you could get a lottttt of money from them.