Going home?

Well, I don't really believe that you can ever go home again, because I'm a bitter old man. But I'm still really looking forward to finally sleeping in my own bed again.

I've been sleeping on couches for the past couple weeks and I'm finally going to get to be home after 2 and a half months of traveling.

I've spent the past few days at my friend Vicky's house. She is the mom of my Ex, Carly. I've been working with her for years now doing the website for her craft business. She is a real sweetheart and I feel terrible that I can't do more for her. Unfortunately her business was a bust and she is going to have to sell her house. It was another reason that it seemed like a good idea for me to come up and visit, considering she is not going to be here for much longer. Carly lives up here as well and we hang out a bunch while I'm up. Over the years we have gotten along really well. She is really sweet and supportive of me and I am very greatful for the opportunity to still have her in my life despite the difficulties it causes me from time to time. Since I have been her she has been really good about helping me sort out my thoughts about my relationship with Rachel.

It is crazy to think that I have really been on the road for the past 10 weeks, but Alex, the subletter is out tomorrow and I'm going to get a chance to just be in my own space for the first time in all that time. It is too good to be true. I'm so ready to be home. I wonder what it will feel like. I wonder what I will feel like after I have been back for a few days. I hope I feel better. I have been really off ever since I got back, I just haven't felt like my self. I have been a little sick and since I have been up here at Vicky's my allergies have been really kicking my ass. My asthma, usually non-existent, has really been kicking in during the evening, making it really hard for me to sleep. I'm so thrilled to be back in a space that is just mine. Just the way that I like it to be. Where I am comfortable and can just be without having to worry about being in someone else's space. Oh my god I'm so ready for that...