Not all bad.

So, I am fucked, there's no way around that. But, I don't want to be completely gloomy about where I'm at. The truth is that my friends have been wonderful to me throughout this entire nightmare and I owe them heaps of gratitude for their generosity.

A few days ago I had dinner with Chris and Nat and Tin tin and that was just wonderful. Those guys were really sweet and supportive and I love their little 2 yo. The next day Nat was cool with me just hanging out and was super hospitable. It was warm and gracious.

Gordon and Kathy have been outstanding and continued to be so giving with their time and their house. They've been a life saver, giving me a place to go when I felt as though if I stayed at Bub's I was going to lose my mind.

Of course there is Mike and his offer to let me stay at his place until I get up on my feet again.

There have been too many more incidents of friendship and kindness to begin to try to lay them all out, but the truth is that my friends have made this horrible time at least something I can live through. Their love and support will make the transition back to my life faster and less difficult, I'm sure. Despite the nightmares and the sadness of loss there is still plenty for me to be grateful for.